Caveman Regimen- Day 5

Skin-wise, I'm doing great. No dry skin, except very light patches around my mouth that are gone by mid-day and reappear the next morning. Pimples I had starting this are greatly reduced, and never actually turned red. I got two new ones, teeny, tiny little things I hesitate to call pimples, they're skin coloured. My tone has been fantastic, you can still see my scars, but they blend better, they're no longer angry looking. Eye bags kind of suck, but I'm trying to increase my water intake to get rid of them.
Everything else-wise, terrible. My self-esteem is worse then I thought. My confidence depended a lot on my makeup apparently. I knew I was insecure, but I thought I'd dealt with it for the most part. Turns out I just covered it up with my lipstick, eyeshadow, and bronzer security blanket. Damn.
I'm kind of an insecure monster. People smile at me, I think they're laughing at me (maybe they are?). Me and my husband go out and someone looks at us, I assume they're wondering what he's doing with a plain old girl like me. Some people give me dirty looks, maybe they always did, but now I take it personally. Wow, that grumpy old man must think I look like such crap that he had to give me the stink eye.
I feel inferior to other women. I always have since a few years ago, long story there, but I basically have confidence like sh*t. It's always been true. Now it shows. Hard to hide it without concealor. I don't know what's wrong with me. I have crazy low self-esteem. I'm mad at everyone, I feel like every other woman is a stuck-up, superior, flirty threat to my happiness. I'm insane. Or maybe some other women really have it in for me, opinions?
In other words, I'm having a crisis. What to do about it? I saw a cross today and felt my lack of a connection to a group, a group that believes in the same things I do. First step: decide what I believe in.
I have no one to back me up. I feel all alone in this big world. Sure I've got my family, but I need a tribe, more then just me and one other guy, and some dependents whom I can only assume will follow in my beliefs (but they may not). Interesting since I read that acne is related to the seventh chakra, reputed to be about spirituality, connection to God, devotion to religion etc. A chakra I've always been hot and cold with.
Am I really that bad looking? Does every person in the grocery store really see my scars, my eyebags and sneer at me for it? If so, ladies, we need to stop this war. Stop picking up on my insecurities and blowing them out of proportion, insecurities you most likely have yourself, but when open for judgement on someone else you jump on it like you believe you're Aphrodite herself. Got things about yourself you don't like? Too bad, don't come projecting these insecurities onto me and using it in a twisted way to make yourself feel superior to what you know you yourself own beneath all that makeup and clothing. Stop flirting with guys you know are taken to make yourself feel superior, stop showing yourself off in your endless cravings, nay needs for reassurance of your attractiveness. Grow up and get over it, like I'm trying to do. Cause karmas a b*tch as we all know, and that baby's gonna hurt when it comes back around. Trust me.
Rant over. This is not just about skin guys, this regimen is deep. Prepare for deep down gook to come up from your spirit, mind, subconsious, whatever, as well as from your skin. Wow.